Archive for December, 2009

If only all resolutions were as easy to keep.

December 30, 2009

Remember waaaaaaay back to the beginning on 2009? Yeah, it’s hard for me to remember, too. Thank god I have a blog with which to pin all of my thoughts, else I’d never remember anything. But getting back to my point: back in January, I resolved to read at least 25 books during the year. Reading is essential to who I am and I’ve found that whenever I fall out of reading, I start getting droopy and fuzzy and lose focus on the who and why of me. 2008 was the year of the separation and working through the divorce – and I only read 22 books. I wanted to be stronger in 2009 so I raised the bar.

How did I do? I ended up reading 63 books this year. Yes. Sixty-three. I am quite awesome, have I mentioned? And it’s no wonder that I feel more like myself than I have in a long time – a quite a bit like a little miss smarty-pants, too! Because I am also neurotic in addition to being well-read, I thought I would write a sentence or two about each of the books I read so that in a year or two when I can’t remember what I though about some of them, I would have some place to look (see earlier reference to not being able to remember anything any more). Because you might be looking for a good book, too, I thought I’d share. I’m nice like that. (A short-list of my top five picks for the year will appear at the end of my reviews.) (more…)

Someone fetch me some chicken soup.

December 29, 2009

I don’t feel good.

My throat is sore, my head is congested, my chest is congested (but only when I first wake up), and I think I’m developing these patchy wastelands on my tongue where my taste buds used to be. (You’re welcome! for all the sharing!) I’m a little sniffly and I feel crummy and just devoid of energy. And still I worked 11 hours yesterday. Because I am committed! (And also because I didn’t really have a choice.)

Today, I am dragging myself through it. But I have to save my energy. Thus – no bloggy blog here for you. So sad. Go heckle my sister and maybe she will send me something to post. I promise to Lysol it first.

The year of the dollhouses.

December 28, 2009

By some miracle, I made it happen. Santa brought both of my daughters dollhouses this year. It all sort of happened by happy coincidence. Then I thought I was barking mad. And I’ve finally landed back at happy – and grateful – that it all came together to bring some of the happiest smiles I’ve seen on Bee’s and Gracie’s faces for a long time. (Not to mention how nice that hour of quiet on Christmas morning while they played happily together – that was kind of nice, too.)

Gracie’s dollhouse is none other than a classic 1980′s Barbie Townhouse. Three floors (plus the option of converting the “roof” to the fourth floor) of some serious Barbie joyfun. I had one AND my sister had one when we were little and we played with those things to death. I had been stalking ebay and Craigslist for two years off-and-on, trying to snag a deal on one. Turns out that not only do Barbie Townhouses sell fast, but for a pretty penny, too. Those things were selling like hotcakes at $60, $70, $80 a pop. I love Gracie to death, but she could keep on using the old changing table as her Barbie house for those kind of prices. Luckily, when I was home on vacation I happened to mention to my aunt that I had been hunting a Barbie house for Gracie. Turns out, she was going through her attic and getting rid of some of my cousins’ toys. She was keeping Shaynie B.’s Barbies, but I was welcome to her old Barbie Townhouse. I was elated, and when it showed up in the mail a month later, I tucked the box away in my closet to use as Gracie’s big gift.

Both girls play with Barbies. I was tempted to give it to both girls. I very easily could have gotten away with that. The problem was, I didn’t know what sort of toys to buy for Bee this year. She’s still a bit young for the teeny, tiny pieces in Polly Pockets. Littlest Pet Shop was an option, but those animals kinda creep me out. I was browsing toys online when I found the Fisher Price Loving Family set. Rooms of furniture. LOTS of rooms. Assorted family members. And a dollhouse. A giant dollhouse that folded out into eight rooms and was roughly the same size as my pre-schooler. I wasn’t as instantaneously sold, but I started thinking…

You see, I remember getting my “real” dollhouse when I was about five-years-old. By “real” I don’t mean a wooden dollhouse that was built from a kit or anything. I believe it was called Better Homes or Little Home and Garden or something like that. The house itself was plastic, but it was incredibly detailed and so were the accessories. The bathroom had a teeny, tiny bar of Dial soap and a teeny, tiny razor. I’m talking tiny – I wouldn’t let my three-year-old play with pieces that tiny. For that matter, I’d hesitate to let Gracie lose play with them. But my mom let me and they were magical. I remember playing with it for hours. I remember arranging and rearranging the furniture. I remember saving my money to buy additional pieces and going to the one store (the now-abandoned Kay-Bee Toy Store with the red and white striped corrugated metal storefront) that carried them. Bee’s dollhouse looked sturdier, but just as detailed and the potential was too attractive to ignore.

So I committed. I told my family that she was getting the dollhouse. At $70 for the dollhouse alone, it was quite the commitment. Rooms ran about $20 each, which is pretty pricey. I was lucky enough to find a buy one, get one sale at Toys’R'Us, and the dollhouse itself marked down $20 the week after Black Friday. But what the heck, right? Can I put a price on what could be one of my daughter’s favorite childhood toys? My bubble burst when the furniture arrived. The quality was a little tackier than it looked online, and I was afraid I had blown everything. I was regretting my decision for such an overpriced gift right up until Christmas morning.

Bee enjoyed opening her presents and finding a few random rooms of furniture amongst her gifts. She had just found out the week before that we were giving her Little People sets away to children who don’t have toys and she was sad. Getting “big girl” dolls and furniture helped her come around to my point of view. Truly, Santa must know everything if he knew she needed “big girl” toys. But Gracie was upset because she hadn’t seen a Note. Santa always leaves a note thanking us for the cookies and milk and congratulating the girls on their accomplishments. He also tells them in a postscript that because they’ve been so good, he’s left an extra present in the front room. (When I was little, he left the special presents on the front porch.) Gracie insisted all morning that there was no Note to be found. She worried. She fretted. And when we were done with the pile under the tree, I made her search the counter better. Silly girl.

When the girls opened the door to the front room and their faces lit up (and their jaws dropped), my regrets vanished. “THERE ARE TWO HOUSES, MOMMY! WITH OUR NAMES ON THEM!” Truly, their own giant nametags seemed to be best part. I will make note of that for next year. Everything gets a giant nametag. And then they played and played and played and played. Maybe Bee’s gift was a little overpriced, but she loves it. And when does the younger child ever get a completely frivolous gift? When she hits the horrible tween years and starts listing every slight she’s suffered for the crime of having been born second, I hope she remembers this Christmas when she got a dollhouse with lots of new furniture just because she’s loved, without any consideration for whether there’s another child behind her who will also get good use out of it.

Seeing those smiling faces on Christmas morning, I’m pretty sure dollhouses are always the way to go.

2009′s Pile of Lists: WHY ME?!

December 27, 2009

Want to know why I blog? Because sometimes for some completely rational unknown reason, my friends get sick of listening to me complain. But dear Bloggy Audience – I have reason to be all woe-is-me! 10 reasons, in fact. Just look at what I’ve been through this year:

  1. I began having icky symptoms of some medical mystery.
  2. The one night I try to have a life, I was almost carjacked.
  3. My icky symptoms were tentatively diagnosed as interstitial cystitis, but then I didn’t have interstitial cystitis, only they made me get x-rays to be sure, and then it turned out to be a kidney stone the size of a small planet.
  4. Tom Brady got married. (Oh, hush – it does too count.)
  5. My washing machine died.
  6. My sister had an emergency appendectomy the night before I had kidney stone surgery.
  7. I was tested for hyperparathyroidism.
  8. I dealt with a cake curse.
  9. My ex-dog died suddenly and tragically.
  10. That slight trouble I was having with my tooth turned out to need a root-canal.
  11. My Ex found the blog. Family drama ensued.
  12. The kitchen was invaded by ants. Which, by the way, turned out to be feral.
  13. My air-conditioner went all poltergeisty on me. I found out later it has maybe two-years tops to live.
  14. I broke the house.
  15. Bee’s daycare tuition went up 8%; Gracie’s went up 40%.
  16. Gracie developed an allergy to Neosporin and then her first tooth fell out at her dad’s house.
  17. I broke the Philadelphia transit system, Gracie broke DFW airport, and I almost broke Gracie’s first symphony by losing my wallet.
  18. My mom started having hallucinations as part of her Parkinson’s symptoms.
  19. I lost control of the car and ended up in a ditch.
  20. And the Ex is getting re-married.

Um. Oh. Was I supposed to only list ten? My bad. Look, it’s a wonder I find the courage to get out of bed every morning, do not heckle me about the list. Really, though, I kinda like the list. I mean, this blogging thing is wonderful. Who else, when faced with any of those things, thinks, Yes! Now I have something to write about! This is awful! I WIN! And THAT, my friends, is finding the silver lining.

364 more days.

December 26, 2009

That’s what my girls would want me to title this post. In fact, when last I saw those two little urchins, they were trying to convince me to rig a paper chain to help them count down until next Christmas. Riiiiight. Because I want to fight about whose turn it is to rip a chain off every single night.

Really, it was a very lovely Christmas. It was short – I only had 24 hours with the girls – but it was lovely all the same. On Christmas Eve we frolicked in the 4 inches of snow we were lucky enough to receive. (Hey, I know and most of you know that 4 inches isn’t a lot, but it’s a relative blizzard down here.) Then we enjoyed a tasty ham dinner very early Christmas Eve night. Gracie kept asking if we were going to have as much food as we did on Thanksgiving, so I tried to accomodate her. Baked ham (sans glaze of any kind), mashed potatoes, corn, fancy croissants, and sliced pineapples. Not nearly as much food as we had on Thanksgiving in terms of variety, but the girls enjoyed that I put everything on platters or in serving bowls and spread it out on the table. Apparently, that makes us fancy, yo.

After dinner, the girls tidied up the rooms for Santa Claus while I posted about our Christmas miracle: The Snow. Then we sat down to open presents. I love my girls: no matter what they opened (“Jeans! Just what I WANTED!”) they were ecstatic. Bee did get a little pouty if she went longer than one round without a present appearing in front of her, but she’s still three-years-old, so I’ll give her a pass this year. I love how we take our time and open presents one-by-one. Not only do we get to really drink in the moment, but we get to see what everyone else has received, too.

We tidied, we played a little, and then we all piled into Gracie’s bed for our annual reading of ‘Twas the Night Before Christmas. And then I began the long, long wait for them to fall asleep before I could start my work: the piling of the presents.

Oh what fun it is to pull them all out from their hidey-holes and count them all up! I only found one box of presents – three toys really – that I had forgotten to wrap. The rest I slung around the tree, trying hard ot make it look like there wasn’t a box of blue presents here and a box of red presents over here. I should really vary my wrapping choices a little more. Sheesh. When that was done, it was time to arrange the Big Presents in the front room. I had assembled Bee’s dollhouse when the girls were at their dad’s and hid it in my closet, so I just had to put Gracie’s Barbie house together. Surprisingly, it only took me ten minutes and one glass of wine. I artfully arranged the dollhouses, slapped giant tags on them, and closed the front room off from any wandering girlies.

Stockings were stuffed. Presents were checked and re-checked. The carrots were retrieved from the snow (and stuffed at the bottom of the trash) and Santa’s cookies were eaten. The stage was set and it was time to sleep…and to wait to see if the girls would finally wake me up, screeching with excitement.

They did.

It was the first year they had woken me up on Christmas morning. Every other year they slept in. They NEVER sleep in. Just that one day. It was infuriating. But not this year! This year Bee woke me up and Gracie wasn’t but ten steps behind her. Coffee was made, Pull-ups were exchanged for underwear (Bee! grow out of this already!), and we settled down for a long, long morning of presents and happy exclamations, and gratitude that I was able to pull this off for my girls, and that I had them here with me to enjoy it all.

It was a perfect Christmas.

Merry Christmas, everyone.  I hope you and yours were filled with wonder and happiness. I hope the magic of the season touched your hearts and surrounded you with lights and loveliness. And I hope my favorite part of Christmas – laughter and togetherness – is with you all year long.

It’s SNOWING!!

December 24, 2009

I didn’t believe the weathermen when they said it was snow. I couldn’t even wish for it because I used all of my (and others’) Christmas magic to help a friend in distress. Maybe the Universe decided my selflessness was amazing and needed to be rewarded because OHMYGODIT’SSNOWING!

This was me three hours ago:

You can barely see the snowflakes!

And this is what outside looked live five minutes ago:

It's been snowing since noon! A Christmas miracle!

You can’t see the dozens of snow angels my girls made or the millions of tracks we left running away from each other during our massive snowball fight (they kicked my butt), or even most of the weeds. And that was just an hour ago! Three inches might not be anything anywhere else, but it’s a Christmas miracle in Texas.

Merry Christmas Eve! I hope you and yours are having as much fun as we are. More than anything else, I hope you are surrounded by those you love and who love you. Never take them granted – especially during this time of miracles.

Love can’t wait for Christmas!

December 24, 2009

It’s Christmas Eve!!

I think I might like Christmas Eve night even more than I love Christmas morning. Christmas Eve is all about the anticipation and excitement of things to come. Usually, I am not very good with the waiting and the anticipation. But on Christmas Eve, it is all right there, just at the tips of my fingers and I relish the anticipation. It’s the one time of year when I think it makes everything better.

It doesn’t hurt that there are a lot of traditions to carry out on Christmas Eve. I am a girl all about traditions. My family always opened presents from each other on Christmas Eve night. It was a way to help us keep straight which presents were from each other and which were from Santa. It also extended the Christmas-y feeling and helped our parents hold the excitement and anticipation to manageable levels if they gave us some presents to open and toys to play with the night before. That’s one of the traditions I’ve continued. I give the girls three presents each from me. One is always clothing of some sort. One is always a toy. The other can be almost anything. Those presents are wrapped and put under the tree as soon as I have them. The presents the girls get each other are wrapped and put under there (or, they will be put under there as soon as they come home and wrap them). And the presents from Grandma Donna and Grandpa John and my brother and sisters go under the tree, too. On Christmas Eve, we open all of those presents and have a merry time.

To facilitate with the opening of the presents on Christmas Eve, my parents started another tradition: Chinese take-out for dinner. We always had Chinese food. It was quick to clean up when we kids were clamoring for my mom to hurry! for the love of Pete! because there are presents to be opened! The Ex and I continued that tradition even before we had children or gifts to open on Christmas Eve. It was a fun little way for me to feel like I was home. This is the first year I haven’t followed that tradition. Since I won’t have the girls tomorrow for lunch or dinner, I decided to bake our Christmas ham today. We’ll eat dinner at 4 or 4:30 and have time to clean up and open presents tonight.

That is…if the power doesn’t go out. Because we have – a winter storm warning! On Christmas Eve! You should have seen my eyes light up when the warning was first issued last night. We have a high wind warning (gusts up to 50+ mph), and snow flurries mixed in with the rain. Snow! on Christmas Eve! In Texas! It’s a Christmas miracle!

So. I am going to go bake about 8 billion pigs-in-a-blanket for us to eat tomorrow morning for breakfast. I will look out the window, checking for snow about every 3 minutes. Then I will start the ham. Then the girls will come home and we will wrap presents, cut paper snowflakes, and clean so Santa thinks we are worthy of gifts. And really, the entire time, I will be waiting to tuck the girls in their beds, read them The Night Before Christmas, and wait – rather impatiently – for them to fall asleep so I can put out their presents.

Surrounded by my girls, Christmas memories, and family and friends both near and far. I will be perfectly happy.

Happy Love Thursday, everyone! And Merry Christmas Eve!

Did I say THAT?!: A year in lists.

December 23, 2009

It seems like everyone is composing a list of some sort. Best movies of the year. Best of the decade. Worst of the decade. Favorite songs. Best dressed. Biggest box office bombs. Who dated whom. Me, I am all: Lists? Did someone say…LISTS? I haven’t met a list I didn’t like. Heh. So I thought I could come up with a few of my own. Here is my first humble offering for 2009′s pile of lists (that will NOT be turned into a bonfire at the end of all the listing, do you hear me?). A few more will appear from now until the end of the year…or until my life turns crazy again and I forget all about them.

Ten Things I Never Thought I’d Say…But Somehow Posted This Year.

    1. There was the bit with the attempted carjacking.
    2. I had to explain to my youngest child the difference between snails and chicken nuggets.
    3. I found wrinkles.
    4. I met Miss Havisham in the flesh.
    5. My sister and I tried to one-up each other’s surgeries.
    6. The Ex killed our dog, told me about it while I was at work, and told the girls just before sending them to school.
    7. I broke Gracie and Bee’s wall.
    8. Super Secret Agent “C” talked me into training for a 5k.
    9. I baked pies in less than two hours and without anything going wrong.
    10. I threatened to kill a sock unless I received $1,000,000 Christmas music.

    There you go. Ten things I’d never thought I say, never mind write about. Other recaps are already pouring through my mind (it’s like a sieve, pouring is a pretty accurate description) like maybe the 10 biggest crises (lots to choose from) or favorite posts or funniest quotes from the girls. Who knew Letterman had so much fun with the lists?

    Cookies that could broker peace in the Middle East.

    December 22, 2009

    I have been baking for six hours straight. I made two pans of fudge and 6 dozen homemade ginger snaps (the kind that are chewy and melt in your mouth), 6 dozen raspberry thumbprint sugar cookies, and six dozen two dozen Mayan Hotties. There may have been more of those, but then I made the grave error of trying one. Now I have no idea what else I’m going to hand out, because all of sudden, there are no more cookies! But that’s okay. Because NOM, NOM, NOM! they are delicious! So good, in fact, that I don’t even care that anyone is getting married or having step-relations or that it refuses to snow here. Hmm…? What? Sorry, couldn’t hear you. I was too busy drooling into my cookie crumbs.

    Have I made my point yet?

    Go. Make them. And when you eat them all and weigh approximately 2,000 lbs like me, the person to thank would be my sister. It’s all her fault. (And this time I really mean it.)


    Ingredients:
    3/4 c. unsalted butter, softened (I used regular stick butter and they tasted just fine, as you can tell.)
    3/4 c. sugar, plus some for rolling
    1 1/2 c. flour
    1 1/2 t. baking powder
    1/4 t. salt
    1 t. ground cinnamon
    1/2 t. finely, freshly ground black pepper
    1/4 t. ground allspice
    1/8 t. cayenne pepper
    3/4 c. unsweetened cocoa powder
    1 large egg
    1 1/2 t. vanilla
    1 c. (6 ounces) semisweet chocolate chips
    Directions:
    1. Cream the butter and 3/4 c. sugar.
    2. Combine and sift the flour, baking powder, salt, cocoa, and spices into a medium bowl.  Add to the butter mixture and mix well.  Add the egg and vanilla.  Blend the mixture to a uniform batter.  Refrigerate at least 1 hour.
    3. Roll the dough into 1-inch-diameter balls (the width of a quarter)(I really put a quarter on the counter for reference), tucking 4 or 5 chocolate chips into the center of each.  [Note: I know this is tedious and you *could* just mix the choc chips into the dough.  You could also just scrap the choc chips altogether and this would still be a very tasty cookie...]
    4. Line two baking sheets with parchment or foil. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.
    5. Roll the balls in sugar. Place the balls on the prepared baking sheets.  Bake for 8 minutes.  DO NOT OVERBAKE.  The cookies should be delicate and soft in the center. They will not look “done” like most cookies do, even around the edges.
    Makes about 5 dozen cookies; they freeze well if they make it that far…
    Nutrition Per Cookie (based on 60):
    66 calories
    0.8 gram protein
    8 grams carbohydrates
    4 grams sugar
    4 grams fat
    10 mg cholesterol
    18 mg sodium
    0.7 gram dietary fiber
    Enjoy!!

    Quote of the Day.

    December 21, 2009

    As I enjoy my “vacation” today, I am going to run to Walmart while all of the crazies are at work, get my oil changed, run to Costco, and then bake. I am insane. To offset the insanity, I bring you a funny story of my offspring.

    Thursday night, Gracie and Bee were busy playing with their imaginary friends while I was busy cooking their dinner. (Oh the unfairness of it all.) I noticed that Gracie was calling one of her imaginary friends something a little odd, and so I asked…

    Me: Gracie, what is your friend’s name?
    Gracie: Figment.
    Me: Figment?
    Gracie: Yeah.

    Figment. As in…Figment of her imagination. I’m pretty sure she was serious and not being a brainiac with a wild sense of irony and deadpan delivery. But with that child you never know. An imaginary friend named Figment. That’s one to tell her children.


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