Or does everyone else feel just a bit…off…when they return from vacation? I’ve been back for 24 hours and I’m finally starting to feel like if I haven’t gotten my groove back yet, it’s beyond my grasp by only thiiiiis much.
Still. It’s been disconcerting. Saturday night when Crisanna picked us up at the airport, I forgot we had already gone through the tollbooth. Then I kept making wrong turns. I almost drove to daycare. Granted, I was operating on very little sleep and I was busy catching up but I still felt like I was operating through a sea of mud in a strange city.
Even the house had that familiarly unfamiliar feel to it though I’d been gone for only a week. I found myself pacing through it before I could feel at home enough to go to sleep, as if I had just arrived here for vacation and the idea of feeling comfortable enough to sleep was laughable. When I woke during the night (only once, at 3 a.m.) I was freezing, but when Bee first woke up at quarter-to-six, I thought the air conditioner had quit. I could barely feel the air moving, the unit sounded like it was churning laboriously out in the living room, and the return wasn’t whooshing in the back hall like it usually does. Had the 100+ degree temps we’d experienced the entire week we were gone killed the a/c…or had I just forgotten what central air sounded like?
Later yesterday morning, when I was driving to the grocery store I had that same feeling. I felt off track; like the first few days after I had arrived home and I was driving around a city achingly familiar and yet strangely surreal because I hadn’t seen it in so long.
Even blogging – something I had relished when I had the time to write while I was back home – was hard to pick up again. Oh, sure, my two-sentence, I’m-here-but-I’m-not post was easy as pie, but I tried writing one of several posts I’ve already thought out and nothing happened. I couldn’t do it. It was there, but not. Just like me.
Is it me, or this in-between unsettling for you guys, too?
Tags: vacation
June 29, 2009 at 7:44 am |
I have been home for just over a week now and I am just now starting to feel like I am back in the swing of things. I don’t think it is just you, but I do kinda hope it isn’t just us.
June 29, 2009 at 5:53 pm |
i had a hard time trying to take a nap after you guys left because it was just TOO quiet. and then saturday night i woke up like 5 times even though there was no Bee to check on and roll back on the couch cusion. i think i also have developed a twitch from the void of not being super stressed lol. i went from writing papers and finals to trying to get the house ready and dealing with dad and then getting to have fun with busy Bee and Gracie and now what? its prob not good not feel like yourself because you’re not stressed or sleep deprieved.